Updated: Apr 3
Starting our journey in places nothing like home is one of the most hardest part in our life, all those how's and why's of us is like eternity at the moment you step on a new place.
I am an ambivert. maybe.... sometimes I love being alone and do things alone, but I felt different happiness when I am surrounded with many people even if I don't personally know them.
How? . . . how can I get along with different types of person? how would I be fine with this new environment?
how about home?
and more and more how's
Anyways what's fun about having so much people around you if you can't be friends with them right?
Before my classes starts in college I honestly tried to be friends with others like people I see on the streets waiting for the bus to arrive, some fellas at the department stores and other public establishments, even churches. So I tried to join bible study here in Markham the community is called "The Bridge" and yeah after several times of attending the study its kind of remind me when I was back home, I joined lots of bible study session, and doctrines. There are groupings in this community and they ask me to join Youth Adult Nights Club. After weeks of me being part of that group, I realize one thing. I can't force myself befriends with other people even if I try, because there's a lot of times that whenever we have gathering as a group, I always felt so outcast around this people. Though I can't help but to get out of my comfort zone and leave the group, I wouldn't say it was bad, its just I can't take the fact that I am just lying to myself that I join that community just to look for real friends and not getting the same faith with them. I feel bad.
Although I tried to understand what can I get out from this, It didn't take me long enough to embrace the main purpose of me joining the community.
After the church story, My class started and I have that idea in my mind of not talking to everybody or anyone. But hey! whenever I saw lots of new faces and mix personalities, as I said I felt different around lots of people! I choose to be that guys that's funny and easy to talk to and even I gain courage to start conversation with them! soon after I realize I ended up being one of those people that has so many friends! I'm happy enough to get out of being loner so as long as I can, I would love to keep this relationship with them and stay happy with them.
'No Man is an Island'
No man is an island entire of itself; every man is a piece of the continent, a part of the main; if a clod be washed away by the sea, Europe is the less, as well as if a promontory were, as well as any manner of thy friends or of thine own were; any man's death diminishes me, because I am involved in mankind. And therefore never send to know for whom the bell tolls; it tolls for thee. -John Donne